hari ini kamu di dunia...

diz entry is specially dedicated to miss lalang...ha ha ha...miss Nor Liyana binti Mohammad...

for diz coming year, hope u will retrieve success

bunge tu lagi comel dari ko...hehehe

for diz coming year, hope u will retrieve happiness

birthday gurl bersama model di airport

for diz coming year, hope u will be more holy...(ahakZzZ)

cantik aa gambar ni...tq cameraman

for diz coming year, hope u will be more tough...

jgn slalu berangan dik oiii...hehehe

i am here to dedicate u a special happy birthday thought...hope u will keep it as a little memoirs...

aku wart adobe photoshop tau cakes ni...special utk ko...tak cukup 22..sebiji g mtk abg ko ek..hahaha

tiba2 je nak post lirik lagu ni..

Disini aku masih sendiri
Merenungi hari-hari sepi
Aku tanpamu
Masih tanpamu

Bila esok hari datang lagi
Ku coba untuk hadapi semua ini
Meski tanpamu meski tanpamu

Bila aku dapat bintang yang berpijar
Mentari yang tenang bersamaku disini
Ku dapat tertawa menangis merenung
Di tempat ini aku bertahan

Suara dengarkanlah aku
Apa kabarnya pujaan hatiku
Aku di sini menunggunya
Masih berharap di dalam hatinya

Suara dengarkanlah aku
Apakah aku slalu dihatinya
Aku di sini menunggunya
Masih berharap di dalam hatinya

Kalau ku masih tetap disini
Ku lewati semua yang terjadi
Aku menunggumu Aku menunggu

Suara dengarkanlah aku
Apa kabarnya pujaan hatiku
Aku di sini menunggunya
Masih berharap di dalam hatinya

Suara dengarkanlah aku
Apakah aku ada dihatinya
Aku di sini menunggunya
Masih berharap di dalam hatinya

touching moment... T_T

-pure heart seeking for honesty-

miss them so much...

Alhamdulillah...both my parents dah slamat menunaikan ibadah haji tahun ni...the most memorable speech b4 they went there is. "Along,nanti jg adik2 ek"...tatkala tu, i was just finished sitting for my final paper...mmg sebak sgt..maklumlah,tak pnah g ditinggalkan parents eventhough duduk jauh dari family, but then everytime I arrived mama will cook special menu for me...and everytime b4 i went back to tawau, papa will book a reservation to the place that I love so much...dlm tak sedar dah dkat masa they will come back...ada lg seminggu...harap2 mereka merupakan tetamu Allah yg dikurniakan haji mabrur...Amiiinnn...

...Mama yg ku sayang...

...Mama lps tawaf wada pg tadi..

...Papa b4 menunaikan rukun haji...

...Papa dpn masjidil Haram...

macam dah lama tak jenguk...

it's been a while i did not peep through this window...erm...dunno why...
maybe it is caused by the hassle bassle that i went through at ip...with all those emo feelings...with all those papers to write on..with all those friends to cheer me up...hehehe =)

and now mrs paul smith is returning...hoping for miracle to be a consistent blogger again...
just now i called my doter...hehehe hairuniza hamdi...got a miss call from her through both handset...she just wanna say that she had send my "kain ela" to be sewed up...murah jer geng...tp kna gk de sumber to pay her...thanks macik...

at daily Q

talking bout past two days...i've watched two hot movies of the years,i guess...

twilight saga : new moon and 2012(for the second time)...hahaha...mengahbiskan duit jer...

new moon

2012

and right now...i am marathoning watching a hot korean drama, you're beautiful...they are totally AN.JELL...u guys must watch them....
you're beautiful

sepi...

sunyi...

rindu...

sepi...

satu...

hanya hati yg berbisik yg mendengar...

salam lebaran...

assalamualaikum kpd semua muslimin dan muslimat walau di mana jua anda berada...
tak sangka plak 1 syawal ni membuka pintu hati wanita ini untuk mengucapkan salam lebaran melalui blog ini...hehehe =) mmg raya tu indah...walaupun thn ni tak meriah sgt, tp kemanisan beraya bersama family tu satu yg sangat2 berharga...kalau korg tak caya,cuba la korg merantau sekali je time raya...takyah beraya ngan family...baru korg tau apa erti raya sebenarnya...

aireen aneza binti abu bakar dan keluarga...termasuk uncle burn, auntie sue, anis azera, ahmad hakimi dan juga azie haleeda ingin ucapkan selamat ari raya...maaf zahir dan batin...=) semoga raya thn ni bawa seribu satu erti dlm hidup kalian....

am i okay???

reflect back to pass few days,i am totally 0 charged...no energy...no feeling...heartless...drowning...helpless...and today i just can pray and hoping for miracle will always be by my side...and I hope no more hurts will attacked my heart, no more sorrow will cover my body, no more pain will be with me...all those feelings make me tired, disappointed and breathless...i have nobody to pampered me, nobody to lend his shoulder when i cry, nobody will watch my smiles when i'm happy...and the things is now recovered to become better...and i hope it was the last time i will suffer from that kind of pain...i am willing to be scolded, to be punished, or to be neglected because of work...but please not because of trust...please...i beg you...and i hope u realize that i am not strong enough to face this obstacle...because the more u do, the more i forgive u...but by the time i couldn't forgive u, nobody knows what will happen to my soul...everyday i am praying for the happiness and i hope it will be everlasting..cause nobody knows how am I suffered by just loving u...

ucapan terima kasih...

Alhamdulillah...walaupun pada asalnya aku tulis entry ni aku tak tau nak tulis tajuk ape...tp ader byk benda yg aku nak express today...i feel a little bit relief sbb Allah masih dengar doa aku...but then, nobody knows what will happen in the future...

ader benda yg kita leh crita kat semua org tp tak semua org akan faham aper yg kita lalui...to tell u the truth, aku mmg suka bercerita pd org2 tertentu, dan org2 trtentu ni dah tau camner cara nak tenteramkan hati aku...and aku sgt2 happy bila org2 ni setia dngar luahan hati aku...

back to two years ago, aku bkn mcm skrg...aku sorg yg sgt hyper...and mudah ketawa tak kira tempat dan masa...dan aku akui skrg aku lebih serius, tp kebaikannya aku lebih matured...terpulang pada mata hati org..aku tak pduli kalo org rase aku tak matured...sbb aku je yg knal sape diri aku sbenarnye...=) yg paling penting adalah masa depan, no turning back...ape yg berlaku hari ini adalah lebih baik dari hari kelmarin dan ape yg bakal berlaku pd hari esok didoakan lebih baik dari hari ini...

actually, today i am really happy and grateful to Allah as I still can be by his side...the harder you strive, the happier u'll live...aku byk blajar ttg erti kesabaran, ketenangan, kesedihan, kekecewaan, kebenaran, kemarahan dan paling penting kekuatan diri...dan aku sgt2 berterima kasih kerana masih diberikan ruang untuk merasa kebahagiaan...=)

arini, aku spend the whole day dgn dia and the things that we do :

11:00 a.m - servis printer, technician tu ckp there is a problem regarding the scanner...

12:00 p.m - Dia antar aku n kak na g skolah, kami submit kertas ujian kat g.pmbimbing, ltak je
atas meja

13:00p.m - rest kt bilik, lepak2...

15:00 p.m - g car wash kat area balung, dikepit kuku oleh dia

17:00p.m - g cari port nak bukak puasa...last2 we all g tomyam utama...

thanks to him...

dua jam saja...

dua jam saja...
smth miracle will fated...
as for me...
Allah had gave me little of strengths that I asked from Him...
Thanks Allah...

"Engkaulah Maha Pengasihani dan Maha Mendengar"

Amiiinnn....

hoping 4 strengths...

Sometimes Allah breaks our spirit to save our soul...
Sometimes Allah breaks our heart to make us whole...
Sometimes Allah allows pain so we can be stronger...
Sometimes Allah sends us failure so we can be humble...
Sometimes Allah allows illness so we can take care of ourselves...
Sometimes Allah takes everything away from us so we can learn the value of everything that he gave us...

T_T

tak nak ketinggalan...

semua org wish ahlan wasahlan ya ramadhan...so, i dun wanna miss to wish to all the muslims out there too....moga ramadhan kali ni lebih baik dari yg lepas2...and moga ramadhan kali ni membawa 1001 erti dlm hidupku...i am praying for my family's health and happiness, and for my love's health and happiness...moga2 Allah makbulkan doaku...moga2 bulan Ramadhan ni dosa2 yg kecil daat dihapuskan...dah 23 tahun hidup di dunia ni, rasa makin byk plak dosa...dosa kat papa and mama, dosa kat cikgu2, dosa kat wan n tok, atuk and wan, mak cik2 pak cik2, kwn2...and semua org...arap2 smua org dpt maafkan dosaku...amiiinn...

rindu nak rase masakan mama,tp pe leh wart,even though with air asia everyone can fly, aku tak rase selesa nak flykan duit papa...and my money, makan pasir la ujung bulan kalo balik..and FYI, I am counting the days for the raya holiday...lagi lama tak balik, baru angah, kimi n baby rindu kut...hehehe =) hopefully...and miss my bestfriend too,ili and amal...geng, jumpe nnti raya k...tapi satu hikmah tak balik cuti this time is aku balajar erti bersabar...biarlah aku jer yg tau...and i am very happy because ader org yg always there by myside...thanks...

nak bergosip jap...

tak jadi...ramadhan dah dkt....huhu...jangan marah...rest in peace...

actually,tgh takde mood..

attacked by the virus...

it was yesterday...I entered 6 Gemilang to handle the pupils for a trial examination...it was paper II, Mathematis...40 minutes from 7.30 till 8.10..done...then, walk downstairs to the staffroom to prepare my teaching aids for the 4 Cekap class...today, I will recover the Materials topic...giving them assessment, and asked them to complete those worksheets in the class..it was really tough for them when it comes to questions...need to translate from A-Z what is the meaning of the questions,they can answer well if it is in Malay,aitee...aiyak...mmg la PPSMI patut dimansuhkan...tp PISMP Science which had learn for 4 1/2 years ni pe cer???

nvm...back to the track...when I entered 4 Cekap, at 9.00..my head is bursting...really wanna knock it with a metal hammer till bleeding...damn...sgt sakit kepala...cam dihentak dgn rocks and metal...cam de asteroids yg besar menghentak2 my head...then...alhamdulillah...can finish the cass even though just sit on the chair and gave them instruction...bg dorg translation...and got small voices, "diam bah...teacher sakit suda pasal kamu...diam~" ade lagi tiny voice, "teacher berjangkit dari siapa virus H1n1??sian teacher...woi,diam bah kamu urg..." no response from miss aireen...after the bell rang, went downstairs to the staffroom,felt really really dizzy...and lie my head on the table...until 11.00...

suddenly, heard kak dayang's voice...and other teachers asking me to go to the clinic, and go home to rest...cannot wake up...so so so tired...feel like wanna vomit...wanna cry!!!sakit sgt2...kechek wake me and ask me whether wanna go home @ nope...just say yes...and gave her the car keys...kechek yg drive....cegu mansur yg inform the admin...went to Shirly lee clinic, batu 3... cannot sit anymore...lying on the sofa...loss...waiting for my name to be called...immediately, went to the doctor's room,being checked...luckily...no fever...(no H1N1)...alhamdulillah...

strong migraine i guess...and I was given 2 days M.C...uinaa...unexpected tak g skool time practicum...slama ini kat IP tak pnah MC...haih...trima qada' dan qadar...then I was given paintkiller, medicine for fever, flu and cough...complete....gotta rest rite now...baru lpas mkn ubat....pray for my health to get well soon...thanks to everyone who care for me...thanks kechek....

this is a set induction of a lesson...

owh, today i had been observed by my teacher advisor...and the thing that i wanna tell u is, there was no electricity suddenly...i go for plan B where i used flash cards and raw material such as basketball, hockey ball and ping pong ball to explain about the relative mass between the Sun, the Earth and the Moon...and the best part is...the pupils were very excited when they were given the sweets and the lyrics card...this song is written by aireen aneza bitni abu bakar okay....

Theme : Investigating the Earth and the Universe
Year : Four
Duration : 1 hour
Title : How Big and How Far

using the tune " it's a small world after all"

happy singing..... =)

too many thigs, too many feels...

1. eiii...di saat ini...aku geram sgt bg pihak mr paul smith yg sgt serabut tak terungkap sbb tiket kl-kb utk raya ni sgt mahal...baik airasia...mas@firefly...all these killing his money softly..and i am the one who is always serabut for him...nape kb??nape bkn balikpapan,solo atau tmpt2 yg tgh offer tu...la...senang jer...jwpnnye mana da org dari kl nak g beraya sana sorg2...kan??sort~!

2. serabutnya....dah masuk 5th week practicum but then every week kena observe, no rest at all...ape tu...owh,maybe dugaan coz Allah takkan menguji hambaNya sekiranya hambaNya tak mampu tanganinya...and every week i am working on my teaching aids...gila la weeiii....sik da suda duit kamek nnti ni...takpa...rezki should be everywhere....

3. missing home lately...sgt2 bersyukur sbb aku ade family yg agak bahagia...yg aku ley bergurau ngan papa, mama, adik2...tp gado tu mmg lumrah kn???air dicincang tidak akan putus...so, tak ksah la kalo gado sekali-sekala...kalo berkali-berkala pon tak ksah la....haih...it will strengthen the bond when u recall back to each of ur family members...home is the world's heaven...

4. I am thinking on the next lesson plan, pe lg aku nak wart...dah kering kontang kotak idea aku smpai aku dah tak mmpu nak wart pe2...aku just mampu bgn kul3-4pg...wart2 keje...and time tu menaip ape yg aku rase patut...and berharap behavioral objective tercapai...dan kdg2 idea2 bernas dtg pon time tu gk...masalahnya,kdg2 ku terlampau berpk camna nak implement in the classroom, kalo bdk2 tu tak paham...camna kalo dorg tak dapat jwb exam...camni rupanya perasaan bila dah jd cegu ek....

5. sgt2 marah dgn lelaki tak bertanggungjawab....yg hanya tau menyakitkan ati perempuan,dan hanya tau menyusahkan dan hanya tau berkata2 manis...gerammmmmmmmmmm...hate that type of guy...owh,luckily,mr paul smith is under a very pleasant condition right now....aku berdoa smoga he will be pleasant smpai bila2...and he is just himself rite now...

6. rindu plak kt kwn2 kat asrama...lepak sama2, bergila sama2 mengumpat pun sama2 gak divide our sins...wakakakaka...boleh ka camtu...ape ni pnye prasaan...dtg sekaligus semua bnda dalam kpala otak aku yg tak brapa nak btul di kala2 dah nak terbenam matahari ni...and now i should get up from this bed, and do something that really benefit myself...and aku sgt2 BLUR....

kwn2...aireen aneza perlukan kaunselor ke??or maybe hanya perlukan org utk dngar dia berckp...thanks aa kamu...yg sdang mendengar...

life is getting tougher, days are getting warmer...

counting the days...
and life are getting tougher while you're pushing too hard to count the days...
since yesterday, past few days, last week, last month, last year...etc...
still counting the days...
and at the last...
you'll just can see the beginning...
from the day you are being the most happiest person in this warmth world...
and after u counting the days, ...
you''ll realize you're the most unhappy person in the world...
should I go on with counting the days...and let the days getting warmer???

third week...

owh...the days are getting calm..makin ari makin dah leh adapt ngan suasana sk taman tawau yg stp ari ade kekecohannye yg ribut bangat sih...aduss....cam ape yg berlaku...and kalo korg g sk tmn tawau nmpak ramai bdk2,guru2,tkg kebun,tukang sapu dan juga nurse klinik pergigian yg sentiasa memakai mask...yerp...telah disahkan seorang pelajar tahun 1 kreatif,yg kakanya ada di smk tawau II,dalam satu kawasan jgk ngan sk taman tawau...dua2nya dah positif H1N1...owh...kes ke 11 di tawau...and kalau g bilik guru skool kami,sumernya berharap utk skool ditutup but then our headmistress won't apply for it from the health department selagi takder org lain yg berjangkit(diz is my expectation)...

and sejak kebelakangan ni,kelam kabut skool itu,pertamanya last week sbb ader seorang ustaz yg special..yg juga guru pelatih jqaf IP tawau,ustaz rosli...sbb pe dia special...erm.maybe org yg knal dia tau...starting from the moment he was introduced in the staff room...keluarla ayat2 begini...
"hello,gud morning...sejak2 ppsmi dimansuhkan ni,makin pandai plak aku speaking bah..."... ini la plg lucu...tp mcm aku simpati nape perlu dipertikaikan keistimewaan ustaz itu...let it be...sumer org ade cara tersendiri utk express kepelikan diorang aite???

and this week,dah minggu ke-3 aku di sini,and aku pnya rph dah byk...let say 1 week = 4...
so 3weeks should be 12...but then cam bertuah coz de kwn2 seperjuangan yg kna wart byk g rph...and akud ah leh hafal nama bdk2 klas 4 cekap...4 amanah lum g...coz 1week = 1time i enter their class..sorry ek murid2 ku...and antara bdk2 yg mencuri perhatian aku...haziq,zul,hani,nadia....erm...and ade nama2 classmate dan pensyarah di kelas aku..tu la snang ingat...cthnya..nadiah mohammad, liyana, sri yana, zaidi dan ismail husin...nape sumer org name sama??tak pnah pun aku dnagr org aireen aneza setempat aku belajar,mengaji,atau mengajar...sesekali kurasa teringin...ewah2...nyanyi plk...

and aku dngar ip takde air...owh,sian new students...but u guys need to face the challenge...itu plg utama...and akan jd rutin...and my junior yg senior kpd junior baru dah mula rasa pe yg aku rasa...hope they succeed...insyaAllah...

and the most important thing...i miss him...lately,sgt bz,krg communication...but always pray for his happiness and successful...

byknye perkara berlaku...

starting from I menjejakkan kaki I ke bandar Tawau ni byk sungguh perkara yg berlaku...byk tak ksah masalh parah tu yg I ksah...sesampai je I kat Tawau,buat kali ke brpnye I tak brp pasti,but then ade penyambut tetamu yg bkn menyambut kitorg but then to welcome the new students..bebudak KPLI Jun intake,kitorang pun tumpang ler dua kaki satu badan atas bas tersebut...satu minggu,tiring but enjoy giler...oh...ape yg tiring..???sbb g klas takde klas...jadual kosong tp kena g klas,ape kes???sila jwb...hahahaha

ape yg best...klas kami mostly start 11 a.m...itu yg best!!!ade 3 paper je diz sem...and no, dh dlm practicum week..owh SK tmn tawau...2 months i'll b wiz u...first day report on duty, b4 assembly dah dpt timetable...gila advance cegu dia...bagus bagus dan bagus...then kena berucap plok dlm assembly...the next day, i've started my class..oh,since sk tmn tawau ada 7 klas for each year,so...thee are a lot of replacement class smasa jadual kami free...

wei,ngantuk gler....takpe i'll keep u guys updated since i am very sleepy...thanks...

lelaki lembut...yg baik dan tak baik...

owhoo...diz topic is quite cool...for those yg anggap diz topic is unnecessary,i am asking for earlier apologize...

sbenarnye....skrg aireenaneza is watching wanita hari ini...and dorg sdg kupaskan isu ttg lelaki lembut ni...hehehe...cam best jer...and jemputannya ialah seorang ustaz,iqram dinzly and fizo....owhoo(sumernye dude from the Matahari,aite??)

lelaki lembut...erm...antara yg semulajadi and membuatkan dirinya menjadi lembut...salahkah mereka ni jadi lelaki lembut..as in my opinion,bkn salah dorg 100%...yg mmg dilahirkan sedemikian rupa,totally tak boleh dipersalahkan..sbb menurut iqram dinzly,setiap manusia baik lelaki@perempuan ade 3% of the other sex pnye hormon...means that lelaki ade 3% feminin and women plak ade 3% maskulin...but then yg dilahirkan mmg dgn terlebih hormon,mesti ade hikmah...huhuhu...syukur la dorg tak cacat...do imagine if u were in their place...

and bg mereka yg dilahirkan tak semulajadi lembut,mcm pathethic la tgk dorg melembutkan diri,but then satu bnda dat make me impress,they build a strong integrity in themselves...(jgn marah ek sape2 yg terasa m'bace blog ini) diz is juz an opinion....and one more thing,do they gain smth besides satisfaction by transforming themselves from one sex to another....guys,u are perfect enuff to live as a guy okay...do appreciate it....

owh...and dlm byk2 pendapat, i will go for the peer also play an important role not to be the catalyst...please...kalo dorg dah lembut,jgn la korg nak persenda@hina@galakkan lagi...they will become worst if u do so...so,as a good frens,do respect but dun show as u are supporting their changes.....ape2 pun lelaki lembut pun ade perasaan okay....jgn wart dorg cam bukan manusia....sometimes,they are more sensitive than the normal people...and they might be rebellious if u treat them bad...tp kalo dorg tak jalankan kewajipan sebagai seorang muslims ejati...tlglah bimbing dorg...they are so easy to listen to you...=)