ya Allah

ya Allah...

aku mohon kuatkan hati aku...

aku sangat lemah di saat ini...

aku mohon Engkau kuatkan hati insan yang kucinta...

sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang..

Ya Allah..

sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui kesukaran hamba-hambaMu..

aku mohon permudahkan segalanya....

tak kuat...sabar abg...sabar.. T_T

sahabat selamanya... =)

Dua tiga kapal belayar di samudera
Ayuh sahabatku kita bergembira
Bermain bernyanyi bersama menikmati indahnya dunia
kerna..

Sahabat untuk selamanya
Bersama untuk selamanya
Kau dan aku sahabat
Untuk selamanya setia
oh oh..

Berakit-rakit kita ke hulu
berenang-renang kita ke tepian
kita berbeza untuk saling mengisi segala kekurangan kita
menjadi..

Sahabat untuk selamanya
Atasi semua perbedaan
Kau dan aku sahabat
Untuk selamanya… selama-lamanya setia…

Tiada bukit yang terlalu tinggi
untuk kita daki bersama
dan tak ada laut yang terlalu dalam
untuk diselami…

Sahabat untuk selamanya
Bersama untuk selamanya
Kau dan aku sahabat
Untuk selamanya ohh..

Sahabat untuk selamanya
Berbagi dan saling menjaga
Kau dan aku sahabat
Untuk selamanya… selama-lamanya… setia…

to mr. paul smith a.k.a mr moizik morus... =) GBU

this special entry is dedicated to special sumone...

may Allah bless you mohd izmee ikran mohd ruslan...

I have no idea to give u anything for this year...

Hope u'll become more success..and may happiness leads ur way...

I love you...Saya cintakan awak...Saranghae..Aishiteru...Wo ai ni...Mein tumse pyar karti hain..

i can juz pray for u and ur happinness...

May u become a great leader, great teacher, great son, great husband, great daddy and great person....~!!!

...count the cakes...

...i made these myself ok...

is it me now???

life is unexpected...assalamualaikum w.b.t...

as I recall myself on my past few years, I realized that life is totally unexpected...even when I entered form 1 at my beloved secondary school also, I dun even know what was I doing there..hello,org masuk SMK Sultanah Asma tu semua stock2 nak belajar cam gler okay...hehe...

But then, i am not the type of student who always put an aim regarding my study...dari kecik g aku taktau nak jadi pe ble bsar..ble org tanye..I'll said bla bla bla...tiru je la ayat kwn2 dlm kelas..so what??huhu...

But then, i realize smth that I dun realize during that moment...I like to talk..haha...suke sgt bercakap..tp takla ckp 24/7..aku suke gk mendengar,and suke bg pendapat..and suke ke dpan..cam bg pendapat ke,bg idea ke..camtu la..hehe...

Tringat plk zmn skool dlu...entering form 1...form 2..mmg ade mood study g, tp ntah...tak suka aa pressure diri study nak mati..tak dpt pe2 pon..and my prinsip...study utk exam itu tidak bagusssssssssss...sy tak suka begitu okey..sy suka study utk tau..utk gain knowledge..and forever..hehe =) (kemain ayat...haha)

then i am used to be a police caddet...hello...5 thn okey...sgt best..tp aku bru discover aku de mgrain ble aku masuk maktab...knape??sbb aku ngat dulu2 tu yg aku sakit kpala nk pecah adalah kerana aku letih berkawad d tgh panas...tp aku suka...coz...bla g wart performance@pertandingan,rase cam dah tul2 polis..waaaaaaa...tambah2 girls' school,mesti la nk jd terbaekkkkkkkk...rite???

entering upper secondary,dah sgt malas nak belajar..and aku plg tak suka subjek menghafal...letih dowh~...ape la..hafal kejap je..astu lupe..so,i will focus more on understand...biar aa dpt sket,yg penting berguna..and plg aku tak suka adalah sejarah..eh,aku takleyh cope la...biarpon add math and physics susah...tp cam thriller sket kut..dr thriller menghafal...der~!!...

sape sangka pas aku masuk matrix aku akan masuk ke maktab plk kan???erm,sbb aku maen2 la....aku kn tak suka pressure blajar..tu la matrix piinter tak brp kick...tp takdela kantoi...cukup2 mkn...and aku dpt la offer dr UPM...sains instrumentasi...hehe...aku tatau nape aku apply tu...sbb sdap kut bunyi dia.hehe...then i reject...i choose to go to maktab perguruan tawau...

bachelor education in science...der~burn la matrix i...takpe..anggap pengalaman..jgn anggap sesuatu itu sbg kerugian...

tak sangka plk g maktab blajar bnda yg sepupu 14kali ape yg aku blajar time matrix...so,ini memudahkan laluan utk score time foundation kat maktab..susah dowh~ketaq gk..hehe...

and sape sangka skrg aku blum dipostingkan setelah tamat pengajian sebagai seorang guru pelatih di institut pendidikan guru kampus tawau since 2005...hello... 5 thn stgh tu...aku doakan segalanya akan jd unexpected lg utk aku...tp yg baik2 la... (^_*) wink wink

~hehe...zmn mude remaje...bsama my sis...b4 g skolah..

mama amik gmbar ni pg2 buta lepas subuh syapie..~

maybe next entry i will tell bout another aspect of unexpected things in my life.... =)

i got a phone call...

assalamualaikum w.b.t...

owh,16:25...dia atas sofa, di depan tv...

me: assalamualaikum...aa..ang katna?nak p mana?

bff: aku otw nak g ipoh...wslm...weiiii...

me: aa..wei,ang dpt skolah mana?ok tak?dok mana?camna?(semua bnda nak tanya)

bff:wei, ang tanya la aku dpt skolah apa...skolah cina ka,skolah tamil ka,skolah apa ka...(cam excited ja bunyi)

me:haa???skolah tamil ka??weiiiiiiiii...ckp aa skolah mana...(tak pnah pndai teka dgn betul,so bek tanya ja terus....)

bff: aku dpt skolah org asli...kira dari kuala kangsar sejam stgh aa lebeyh krg...

me: pedalaman ka?P1,P2,P3???P brapa???

bff:tatau...gb ckp P2...tp kerani cakap elaun rm500...tgk la nnt gaji aku( smbil membayangkan my bff bwk hilux balik loq stuck)

me: wei...serius??wei...tak pcaya....wei....ang dok mana??bwk keta ka???

bff: ang ni...dngaq la aku nk cita...dngaq la dngaq....

me:ok ok...aku dengaq cam ang excited ja..aku ngat ang sedeyh...

bff:aku dah ilang dah sedeyh...memula kat PPD tadi depa panggil aa nama sorg2...aku no 2...hat first tu dpt kat pekan aa...bila dia sebut nama aku gtau skool...aku dpt pedalaman...dah ketaq dah...waaa

me:waaaaaaaaaaaaaa...camtu plk..erm..SKM ka??

bff:SKM tu apa???(apa la cikgu ni...itu pon tatau...hehee..jgn marah ek bff)

me:sekolah krg murid aa macik...

bff:oo...tatau aa..yg aku tau...(me menyampuk..bla bla bla...ape ntah tak ingat dah...) wei,ag dngaq ni aku nak gtau...b4 aku dtg ...cikgu da 21org...sorg ja pompuan..

me:haaaaaaaaaaaa?(terkejut kut)

bff:tp lpas kami dtg ni...ada 6 org..kami mai 6 org,sorg ja laki...tp kira ok la..ada 2 org bwk keta..nnti nak kuaq kami tumpang2 la...wei,pasni aku taleh call ang..takda line..kalo ada kena pnjat2 bukit sket baru dpt....tp takda keja aa aku nak panjat2 bukit..hahaha...nnti email je la...

me:ang kena email aku dlu...nnti aku dpt tau aku posting mana aku gtau la kat ang...kalo tak dpt gtau..aku mtk tlg asraf (bff's husband) antaq burung merpati kat ang...hahaha

bff:hahahaha (ok,dpt dngar dia ketawa kira lega jgk) aku dok kuarters..sbb bdk2 situ dok asrama gk..sbb da yg dok jauh2 tu..erm..murid2 dia jumlah smua dlm 400++ aa...

me:wei,gud luck tau...take care...nnti kalo ang free..call2 la aku..(eh,lupa mana da line...tp sbb tatau nk ckp pe dah utk kuatkan semangat dia...hehe)

bff:ok...aku nak g ipoh ni..umah abg asraf...

me:ok...take care..assalamualaikum...

me and ili before her akad nikah ceremony

owhooo...meaningful call from my best friend forever...pn ili haniza ismail...hope everything will be fine..and i hope i'll got my posting soon...

wish me luck...

byk nk tulis...akhirnya bercadang melayu=english=kawaii~!

sebenarnye laz nite nak tulis bnda lain..tp tetiba ayat dlm awan dania siri 3 masih berlegar2 di kepala..dlm sr 3..episod yg ditayangkan pd 27 dec'10..dania(scha) and akmal(gambit) naik ferris wheel..kalo tak salah...then suddenly..ntah ape yg c gambit tanye dania...dania tanye...

"awak ni betul-betul ke invite invite chicken???"

terus rase cam...waaaaaaaaaaaaa....kawaiiiii...so sweet la ayat melayu dienglishkan...kalo think positive, mmg cute kn..kalo sesetengah org yg taleh trima, akan ckp bhs melayu telah dispoilkan..hehee...but, ape2 pon...i loike..............dan oleh itu...i came out with this entry..sape2 like...plz comment...sy suke bc comment org..walaupon mengkritik....kinda refreshing...~!

okai..let us start...beberapa phrase2 melayu yg kawaiii apabila dienglishkan...

yg usual....

clea wata dun sangka no boya... = air yg tenang jgn disangka tiada buaya

dun play2 = jgn main2...

shy shy cat = malu2 kucing

sit quiet quiet = dok diam2

eat slow slow = makan pelan2

(kalo korg prasan, semuanya yg mempunyai kata ganda kan???)

susah gk ek nak englishkan perkataan2 melayu....hehehe..kalo de idea sila beritahu...i'll add some more...

today's enemy...superlicious

Assalamualaikum w.b.t...wink 2x...owhoo...cam dah lame tak update..sbb internet yg sgt siput kat ip tawau plus 2sem yg sangat sangat sangat sangat superb bz sbelum tamat pengajian...i mean it ok...erm...of course...dah tamat 5 1/2 crack years...it's been really tough but yeaaaaaaaaaaaa...i made it yo~!!and utk meraikannye...aku memanjakan diriku enjoy dlu b4 posting...so,mcm menjadi satu kemestian plak bercerita ttg musuhku ni bla balek umah...sape???hahaha...jgn salah sangka...musuh yg membawa kebahagiaan...check it out~!

b4 meeting the enemies

teman berjumpa musuh

lokasi berjumpa musuh

bekal untuk berperang dgn musuh...walaupun berperang mulut...cari pasal ngan aku ek musuh...

masa yg ditunggu2...haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...musuh2 aku dah sampai...AWAS~!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Musuh #1 Royal Masala personal pan

Musuh #2 cheese meatball masala

musuh #3 chocolate volcano..........mmg berlava...meletop!!!~

musuh #4 fetuccine carbonara

musuh #5 garlic bread...

and tapau 6 biji doughnuts g...waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...superlicious~!

walaupun korg musuh terhebat....aku suke ngan korg....marilah kte berkwan baek...huhu..abaikan segala diet2 tu wart seketika...hehehe

muke kepuasan selepas berbattle dgn musuh...perut..maafkan saye...hehehe..kena sopan kalo dah wart salah... (^_*)

all in one...

when i watched diz commercial,the first thing come in my mind is...what a luvly father the baby caterpillar have...=) so cute...saving the best for his baby...enjoy this...

somewhere i wish i could be (^_^)

sila tlg B...

"esok B dh abeh exam dh kn???"

"Blom.da g seni...B blom tgk g nak wart hat mana..."

"meh along tgk..kut2 ada ilham.."

"sat...B p amik soalan dia..."

setelah beberapa ketika...dan setelah meneliti...cam ini yg berkenan d hati...

Rekaciptakan satu simbol/logo yang sesuai untuk digantung pada bilik tidur anda berukuran 20cmX25cm.
Pastikan ilustrasi menonjolkan identiti/ekspresi diri anda.Penggunaan warna adalah bebas.

cam best je kembali ke zmn skool...he he he...meh teacher-future-to-be ilhamkan...sgt teruja utk melukis dan mewarna mlm2 buta nih...

tada........................

ini hasilnya....

aku cam nak jadi door-room designer aa pasni...hehehe =p (poyo sorg2)

mendengar seterusnya merasa...

hye there...it's been four months since I expressed here...phew~!safely arrived at lcct at 12.25(pacik kapten tu la ckp td time dlm kapal terbang...tatau la btui ke dak...sbb time tu aku dok gosok2 mata g...hehehe...owhoooo hoiiii...dah abeh 7sem menjadi penuntut di IPG kampus tawau...dari sebutannya maktab perguruan tawau ----> institut perguruan tawau ----> institut pendidikan guru kampus tawau dan akhirnya....ipg kampus tawau...next sem will be my final year...

just lepaking dgn my buddies, my darlin'(ehehe) and his newly friend...seorang ex-kpli and ditugaskan di P1 lahad datu ok..dia ckp skool dia da lbey krg 80 org murid, cikgu ada 9org...(jerr) huhu =( ok...mendengar...mendengar...dan mendengar.....grubble 50km...so, everyweek dia akan balik LD (stands for lahad datu)...utk ape??utk cuci pakaian..sbb kat skool dia tue pakai air ujan..jd nanti sabun tak hilang..melekat...and dia ckp lg,kitorg dengar lagi....sana pakai tenaga solar...leh trima la...laju tue...(3X10 kuasa 8)hehehe...so, jwbye takde la pakai LCD,lapto segala bala kn...dah jd mudah....

ok....here come the challenge...ade bunyi org petik suis,w'pun pd hakikatnye takde org...ade org main air w'pun takde org...dan ade org tanye, "dah masak ke?"...dan sekali lg walaupun takde org...and kami dah tgk video ke"gruble"an 1km itu...adakah itu P1...jd org yg dpt posting P3??camne la plak...agaknye buaya jd mainan kut....rimau jd peneman...aduss....need to work on my mental now...kalo tak leh retarded aku....tak pasal2 jd cikgus pecial needs...sape ckp keje cikgu tak chalengging??lu try la dulu....

antara mendengar dan merasa....
aku mntk2 la aku kuat utk terima ape je ketentuanNya menjelang 2011...

someone is being hurts...

1.what pain really is, until you have lost it.

2. While being in love there are two requirements:
heart breaking and healing. Healing takes time.

3. I still run, I still swing open the door,
I still think, you'll be there like before.
Doesn't everybody out there
know to never come around?
Some things a heart won't listen to,
I'm still holding out for you.

4. He touched my heart with
a thousand pleasures and
broke it into million pieces.

5. To live life without you is to live life without love.

6. One of the hardest things you'll ever have to do is stop loving someone because they've stopped loving you.

7. Life is prison when you're in love alone.

8. The greatest distance on earth is not north and south, it is when I am right in front of you
and you do not know that I love you.

- cited : http://www.lovedquotes.com/lovehurtsquotes.htm -

hari ini kamu di dunia...

diz entry is specially dedicated to miss lalang...ha ha ha...miss Nor Liyana binti Mohammad...

for diz coming year, hope u will retrieve success

bunge tu lagi comel dari ko...hehehe

for diz coming year, hope u will retrieve happiness

birthday gurl bersama model di airport

for diz coming year, hope u will be more holy...(ahakZzZ)

cantik aa gambar ni...tq cameraman

for diz coming year, hope u will be more tough...

jgn slalu berangan dik oiii...hehehe

i am here to dedicate u a special happy birthday thought...hope u will keep it as a little memoirs...

aku wart adobe photoshop tau cakes ni...special utk ko...tak cukup 22..sebiji g mtk abg ko ek..hahaha

tiba2 je nak post lirik lagu ni..

Disini aku masih sendiri
Merenungi hari-hari sepi
Aku tanpamu
Masih tanpamu

Bila esok hari datang lagi
Ku coba untuk hadapi semua ini
Meski tanpamu meski tanpamu

Bila aku dapat bintang yang berpijar
Mentari yang tenang bersamaku disini
Ku dapat tertawa menangis merenung
Di tempat ini aku bertahan

Suara dengarkanlah aku
Apa kabarnya pujaan hatiku
Aku di sini menunggunya
Masih berharap di dalam hatinya

Suara dengarkanlah aku
Apakah aku slalu dihatinya
Aku di sini menunggunya
Masih berharap di dalam hatinya

Kalau ku masih tetap disini
Ku lewati semua yang terjadi
Aku menunggumu Aku menunggu

Suara dengarkanlah aku
Apa kabarnya pujaan hatiku
Aku di sini menunggunya
Masih berharap di dalam hatinya

Suara dengarkanlah aku
Apakah aku ada dihatinya
Aku di sini menunggunya
Masih berharap di dalam hatinya

touching moment... T_T

-pure heart seeking for honesty-

miss them so much...

Alhamdulillah...both my parents dah slamat menunaikan ibadah haji tahun ni...the most memorable speech b4 they went there is. "Along,nanti jg adik2 ek"...tatkala tu, i was just finished sitting for my final paper...mmg sebak sgt..maklumlah,tak pnah g ditinggalkan parents eventhough duduk jauh dari family, but then everytime I arrived mama will cook special menu for me...and everytime b4 i went back to tawau, papa will book a reservation to the place that I love so much...dlm tak sedar dah dkat masa they will come back...ada lg seminggu...harap2 mereka merupakan tetamu Allah yg dikurniakan haji mabrur...Amiiinnn...

...Mama yg ku sayang...

...Mama lps tawaf wada pg tadi..

...Papa b4 menunaikan rukun haji...

...Papa dpn masjidil Haram...

macam dah lama tak jenguk...

it's been a while i did not peep through this window...erm...dunno why...
maybe it is caused by the hassle bassle that i went through at ip...with all those emo feelings...with all those papers to write on..with all those friends to cheer me up...hehehe =)

and now mrs paul smith is returning...hoping for miracle to be a consistent blogger again...
just now i called my doter...hehehe hairuniza hamdi...got a miss call from her through both handset...she just wanna say that she had send my "kain ela" to be sewed up...murah jer geng...tp kna gk de sumber to pay her...thanks macik...

at daily Q

talking bout past two days...i've watched two hot movies of the years,i guess...

twilight saga : new moon and 2012(for the second time)...hahaha...mengahbiskan duit jer...

new moon

2012

and right now...i am marathoning watching a hot korean drama, you're beautiful...they are totally AN.JELL...u guys must watch them....
you're beautiful

sepi...

sunyi...

rindu...

sepi...

satu...

hanya hati yg berbisik yg mendengar...

salam lebaran...

assalamualaikum kpd semua muslimin dan muslimat walau di mana jua anda berada...
tak sangka plak 1 syawal ni membuka pintu hati wanita ini untuk mengucapkan salam lebaran melalui blog ini...hehehe =) mmg raya tu indah...walaupun thn ni tak meriah sgt, tp kemanisan beraya bersama family tu satu yg sangat2 berharga...kalau korg tak caya,cuba la korg merantau sekali je time raya...takyah beraya ngan family...baru korg tau apa erti raya sebenarnya...

aireen aneza binti abu bakar dan keluarga...termasuk uncle burn, auntie sue, anis azera, ahmad hakimi dan juga azie haleeda ingin ucapkan selamat ari raya...maaf zahir dan batin...=) semoga raya thn ni bawa seribu satu erti dlm hidup kalian....

am i okay???

reflect back to pass few days,i am totally 0 charged...no energy...no feeling...heartless...drowning...helpless...and today i just can pray and hoping for miracle will always be by my side...and I hope no more hurts will attacked my heart, no more sorrow will cover my body, no more pain will be with me...all those feelings make me tired, disappointed and breathless...i have nobody to pampered me, nobody to lend his shoulder when i cry, nobody will watch my smiles when i'm happy...and the things is now recovered to become better...and i hope it was the last time i will suffer from that kind of pain...i am willing to be scolded, to be punished, or to be neglected because of work...but please not because of trust...please...i beg you...and i hope u realize that i am not strong enough to face this obstacle...because the more u do, the more i forgive u...but by the time i couldn't forgive u, nobody knows what will happen to my soul...everyday i am praying for the happiness and i hope it will be everlasting..cause nobody knows how am I suffered by just loving u...

ucapan terima kasih...

Alhamdulillah...walaupun pada asalnya aku tulis entry ni aku tak tau nak tulis tajuk ape...tp ader byk benda yg aku nak express today...i feel a little bit relief sbb Allah masih dengar doa aku...but then, nobody knows what will happen in the future...

ader benda yg kita leh crita kat semua org tp tak semua org akan faham aper yg kita lalui...to tell u the truth, aku mmg suka bercerita pd org2 tertentu, dan org2 trtentu ni dah tau camner cara nak tenteramkan hati aku...and aku sgt2 happy bila org2 ni setia dngar luahan hati aku...

back to two years ago, aku bkn mcm skrg...aku sorg yg sgt hyper...and mudah ketawa tak kira tempat dan masa...dan aku akui skrg aku lebih serius, tp kebaikannya aku lebih matured...terpulang pada mata hati org..aku tak pduli kalo org rase aku tak matured...sbb aku je yg knal sape diri aku sbenarnye...=) yg paling penting adalah masa depan, no turning back...ape yg berlaku hari ini adalah lebih baik dari hari kelmarin dan ape yg bakal berlaku pd hari esok didoakan lebih baik dari hari ini...

actually, today i am really happy and grateful to Allah as I still can be by his side...the harder you strive, the happier u'll live...aku byk blajar ttg erti kesabaran, ketenangan, kesedihan, kekecewaan, kebenaran, kemarahan dan paling penting kekuatan diri...dan aku sgt2 berterima kasih kerana masih diberikan ruang untuk merasa kebahagiaan...=)

arini, aku spend the whole day dgn dia and the things that we do :

11:00 a.m - servis printer, technician tu ckp there is a problem regarding the scanner...

12:00 p.m - Dia antar aku n kak na g skolah, kami submit kertas ujian kat g.pmbimbing, ltak je
atas meja

13:00p.m - rest kt bilik, lepak2...

15:00 p.m - g car wash kat area balung, dikepit kuku oleh dia

17:00p.m - g cari port nak bukak puasa...last2 we all g tomyam utama...

thanks to him...