sgt bz...tq yana...=)

sory...i am totally bz diz week...starting moment of practicum...so,cam tak brp dpt nak update melainkn bebetul free...tp2 mlm tdo sejam dua je...so...lu pk la sniri....

*yana,thanks for the bloggin'...sgt menarik.....thanks....

splendid journey...

after spending a week kat kk, on duty o.k...bkn saje2...de tugasan kkbi n big...then only i had a splendid 3 days hourney...trip to kudat was really georgeous...sgt bahagia menikmati pemandangan alam ciptaan Allah SWT...kagumnyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....n da most memorable moment for my fwen,yg bakal jd my housemate...jenny leong...we celebrated her birthday there...at simpang mengayau,the tip of borneo...knapa tmpat itu sgt cantik????

...pose kunun, sampang mangazo...

"pertembungan 3 laut..."

"sempat g bbq..bakar sotong,cheesy sausage n ubi.."

diz is the first part...sbb our splendid vacation sgt byk yg mau diceritakan...for the next post i'll continue bloggin' on the second day of the splendid journey k....miss those moment...=)

baby...

sorry, quite bz lately...byk yg mau dipikirin...hehehe...saat ni,i am totally miss my luvly cousins, najmi and najhan...sbb pe??sbb tgk gmbar mr paul smith time kecik2...sgt cute la bdk2...why???sbb diorang blum ader dosa...masih suci...camtu gak najmi n nazhan...sgt bijak, hyperaktif,keletah dorg sgt menghiburkan...abg byk ckp...pandai lg tu...kalo time kitorg one family jumpe diorg,mesti ade jer modal c abg n c adik...adik plak pendiam,tp sgt cpt bertindak...eee...dah lame tak jumpe diorg...najmi dah darjah satu pun...eh,darjah 2...nazhan...muda 3thn...

...ni najmi,blur tul...


...ni nazhan,sgt pendiam tp diam2 ubi berisi...

mesti dorg dah tak berapa knal cousin dorg ni...yg dulunyer dorg panggil kak long eghin...hahaha...sbb dorg tak reti sebut r...erin = eghin... so sweet...i really luv kids..sbb dorg jer yg leh wart sy senyum time sy sdih...sbb dorg sgt suci...n kalo time sy tgh sedih mesti sy tgk gambar baby...termasukla mr paul smith time baby on my dashboard...so cute...sgt suci....

...mr paul smith time comel2....

n kalo berckp pasal baby mesti la teringat my lil c's time dia kcik2...sgt comel...n smpai skrg still panggil baby...ahakZzZ...melekat...time baby kcik2...sgt putih dan sgt manja...tp senang dijaga...sbb dia slalu kena tinggal...pnah skali time ada lawatan PERKEP (persatuan keluarga polis), mama tinggalkan baby ngan kaka dia(arwah m.lang)...kitorg ksian sgt kat dia..almaklumlah....br dpt adik baru...time tu cam dia baru brp bulan...sgt comel...sgt kesian ditinggalkan...hehehe...n kitorg 3 beradik siap wart jadual g,sape wart susu,saper buang pampers..saper masak air utk mandikan baby...sumer berebut..sbb baby sgt cute...hehehe...rindu sgt kat baby yg kcik2..skrg dah 14thn pun...haih...sbb tu la sy sgt suker bayi...sbb sy anak sulung, n sy ader 3 org jer adik...n sy jelez tgk kwn2 sy yg dah ader anak buah...sbb sy lambat g...takpe...sabar...hehehe =)

heran kn naper ader manusia snggup buang bayi...dorg tak kesian ker tgk baby tu cumil g...mulut kecik,tgn kecik,idung kecik,mata pun tak berapa nak boleh bukak...eiii....sian tul...nape la kejam tul manusia zaman skrg...nauzubillahi min zaliq...kalo nak buang tu pkl la dlu time korg kecik2...sumer org syg korg..tau tak baby tu sgt tak berdaya utk idup sendiri...dia pndai nangis jer...sian la...haih....emosi sket bab2 baby ni...to all u guys out there...let us pray to Allah so that all the babies in the world will live piecefully n being loved by their parents...Amiinnnn.... =)

ape itu future???

since 4th july 2005,dah brp lame i stayed at diz perfect statue (antonym of it)...n everything flows as i doesn't predict at all..i repeat...at all...future...diz is the main reason why i was here...hello~! it is so near to 4 years duration only i think bout future???aduh...sgt memenatkan utk menghabiskan lagi 3semester...how come i could managed all the 8 semester???sgt kagum dgn diri sendiri...walaupun pelbagai dugaan yg dialami,itu smua adalah pass for facing the future...do you guys agree???

sgt penat...idup kat cni la plg pnat...everything adalah ad-hock smpai tetiba short of water also become routine...do i make myself clear...routine ok takde air one week,jgn nak membebel...lumrah khidupan di maktab perguruan tawau itu,merangkap institut perguruan tawau dan kini institut pendidikan guru kampus tawau...it is the same statue...hello!~ come on la...wake up...it's all bout future...sgt perlu berusaha ke titisan tinta yg terakhir...mesti tabah slalu...

kdg2, when i am totally alone, the things dat always being reflect by my mind is "so...i've pass diz far,so...what is the meaning of diz few left???" sgt perlu berusaha...do you guys get it???if nope,nvm...it is juz happening on my own....sgt perlu tabah...kekadang,future make me stronger...di mana ada kesabaran,di situ ada keindahan...di mana ada kemahuan, di situ ada jalan...di mana ada kehendak, di situ anda bertindak...

pen off...sgt perlu tabah.sgt perlu berusaha....

diz is so real...

experience matured a person...do the phrase goes that way???sgt happy rite now...sgt2 bahagia...but then...really hope dat it will everlasting...do the days pass by was juz a dream...i dun think so...diz is so real...sejak kebelakangan ni..i feel like i am a child who was being pampered, a princess who was being cared,a lady who will always being love...sgt bahagia...hehehe (jiwangs plk..ker ala2 fairy tale...???)

kalau jatuh ader org sambut, kalau tak bernafas ader org nak bekalkan oksigen, kalau sakit ader org nak pulihkan, kalau tekanan ader org nak ilangkan...camtu la prasasannya...nape...sbb kesabaran itu indah...trust me...Allah mesti makbulkan doa hamba2Nya yg benar2 ikhlas...tp jgn terlalu yakin terlampau awawl...sedangkan ader pepatah mengatakan, kusangkakan panas sampai ke petang; rupanya hujan di tgh hari... inikan pulak kiter ni...manusia yg mesti redha dgn qadha' dan qadarnya...wallahu'alam....

kalau la diberikan pilihan...i would like myself to meet him since i was born...but meet without a relationship but only a promise to live together till da end of my life...boleh ke camtu???mane de...citer hindustan leh aa...but then, i am totally thankful to Allah to reawarding me this " "...he is so undescribable....(does it seems to b a bit hyperbola???" let's gone by gone...nobody's perfect...sumer org wart mistakes...so,dun just judging people without look up into the mirror...it seems like pretty hard to describe ur gud frens's bad habbit thru the mirror rite???think wisely...

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

kdg2...

kdg2...sy mudah terasa...
kdg2...sy mudah marah...
kdg2...sy mudah menangis...
kdg2...sy mudah bertahan...
kdg2...sy mudah menipu ape yg sy kecewakn...
kdg2...sy mudah terseksa...
kdg2...sy mudah dipujuk...
kdg2...sy mudah sejuk...
kdg2...sy mudah bersedih...
kdg2...sy mudah tersentuh...


smua kdg2...tp selalunnye...semua pun berlaku serentak...camne tu??susah aa...
same gk cam 2day...
sy sgt2 sdih tp sdih tu tak dpt diluahkn...
snggup g sy ckp sy tak sdih smata2 nak bat org lain happy...
tp ape yg akan terjadi kt sy kalo sy trus camni...
kalo ckp plk nmpk mcm terlebih manja...sket2 nak mengadu...
tp...
inilah sy...lebih mudah pendam dr bersuara...
sedih, terluka, tertipu, terabai...semuanya bercampur baur...tp sy msti tabah...
ade sorg gigirl ni gto sy...kesabaran itu indah...
jd sy mcm dah berpegang ngan kata2 gigirl ni...thanks gigirl...
sy hrp...mmg de hkmah di sbalik smua ni...sy redha dgn ketentuan Illahi....
wallahua'lam...

hate n liars...

it seems to be fated dat i hate to be around all the liars...but then life is all about it...everywhere there are a lot of liars,fake,pretentious...and sumtimes we dun realize dat we are also in da "liars tribe"...admit it...nobody's perfect...or...nobody's completely perfect...melainkan rasulullah SAW...so, if u want to judge others, please...please...please...looks into the mirror and speak to yourself first...dun blame the others too much till u forget that he or she is also a normal homospahiens as u are...do i spell it rite???i really hate liars...and fake...but then...the worst attitude ever dat i've really hate n faced is...backstabber...there is sumtimes a gud reason enuff for to be a backstabber, but most of the time it is totally negative...who cares in nowadays world...nuthing is more valuable than self-satisfaction...

for the hate that i dun like the most, i'll try my best to avoid it...but then...life is life...have to face the others altough u like it or nope....hope i'll becoming more tough n gain full of strength in da future...insyaAllah...

FOR BETTER OR WORSE

Created by mysecretlife16

broken smile
starless sky
grab it all and
say goodbye
sticks and stones
may scar my skin
but words slice
through my soul within
cut my wrist,
black my eyes
you won't stay
let's tell some lies
tragedy unfolds tonight
bury me in memory
with blood on my
hands I give you my heart
for worse or for better
it's only a start
roses are red
violets are blue
sugar is sweet and so are you
but the roses are wilted
the violets are dead
now the sugar bowl is empty
and my arm is stained red

merenung zaman sailormoon...

ari ini sy mau tulis pasal zaman kanak2 sy...zmn kanak2 sy adalah sgt bahagia...ade sailormoon,flashman,maskman,jetman,tora ding dang,hehehe...time dlm klas td...kitorg borak2 psal zmn kanak2...sambil mendownload lagu sailormoon dr youtube...wakakaka...sgt super saya...hahaha

dulu2...
kul 4 ptg dah duk dpn tv...ngan adik2...sambil mkn keropok goreng@cekodok@ubi rebus cicah klape...hehehe...smata2 tunggu jetman, flashman, maskman , tomatoman, ultraman kids, wah...sumernya bess...knapa itu???

dulu2...
bila mamak roti dtg ngan motonya...berbekalkan plastik2 di kiri kanan motornya...bnda pertama yg bdk2 serbu, kropok aladin yg dpt free gift, kipas terbang, rantai plastik (dipakai lalu berjalan2)...ding dang...tora mahal sket...kek hiro belang2 merah putih...bebo...kropok yg de gambar doraemon...chewing gum yg leh ade gambar leh lekat kt tangan...hehehehe =p

dulu2...
bdk2 sgt meminati band boy...yime darjah 6 dah pndai nyanyi2 lagu bsb, nsync, five, ape lg...aa..n termasuk la...spice girl...n dulu2 ade kad nama yg backgroundnyer de gmbar artis...kalo dah bg satu pun...bg g kalo tempah gambar len...poyo jer...

dulu2...
berkumpul satu lorong dlm taman...utk ape....main toi...bahasa kedah...galah panjang,astu kalo prerempun pnyer musim...men batu selambut@batu seremban, n zero point..hahaha...ade g,tuju kasut, konda kondi....jengkek@teng2...sgt bahagia...tak pk pe dah pas balik ngaji quran....trus tukar baju men...hahaha...bila g dpt rasa kebahagiaan itu....

dulu2...
lawak la...hehehe...rugi tau bdk2 lahir lewat...tak dapat rase ape yg kitorg rase...skrg hanya da myspace,facebook,friendster etc....ape la....

kalo la dpt kembali pd masa tu... =)

dah lame baru jwb....sory teja

1. Do you think you're hot?
Not at all...wrong person...hahaha...

2. Upload a favourite picture of you.



3. Why you like that picture?
ntah...cam bajet ayu..hahaha =p

4. When was the last time you ate pizza?
pizza jitra, with my sister, B...sgt sdap....

5. The last song you listen to?
Dear God, Seven Avenged Fold

6. What are you doing now besides this?
watching SPAQ 2

7. What name do you prefer besides yours?
along n cyg...can it be 2???hehe =p

8. Tag 5 people.
1)Shayra
2)Amal
3)Mark
4)Nyza
5) ...

9. Who is number 1?
She is SHE...my bff...

10. Number 2 is having a relationship with who?
her bf..hahaha...ONE...so called his name...live at B.Antarabangsa...mix KL-KLTN...opss =p

11.Say something about number 5.
sape tu... ???

12. How about number 4.
she is my "daugta"...merangkap my neighbour...merangkap my lil c's jr...sgt nakal...

13. Who is number 3?
my memorable fren...mark@iela...sgt baik...n we share the same interest most of da time... =p

mee suah + 2 more days left...

woke up quite early today...but tdo blk...sdap tul tdo..heheheh...=p bak kte baby and my angah... "puteri dah bgn?awainyer...p la tdo g...kan katil dah terbentang elok...dh pasang air-cond..."kuang asam pnyer siblings....pndai tul mlawak ek...heheheh....
went to sarah room...106 i guess...illegal cooking moment...mee suah...sgt sdap..n also sup labu taiwan...pmberian c santoot sms di kundasang...mee suah sarah yg msak, dia ckp...
"tak nak...kalo k.aireen masak tak sdap..." eiii...blum try, blum test, blum tau to x...hehehe

"mee suah ini nampak ordinary...tp sgt sdap...."

bhn2 dia snang je...just hiris bawang sgala...tumis...ltak minyak...then ltak fishball...ltak sayur...kobis cina yg sadap...hehehe...daun saderi...lastly,ltak aa mee suah...try la ek...sup labu taiwan lagi snang...just potong petak2 labu tu...then rebus ngan air...ltak garam n kiub pati ayam...dah siap....mmmmm....marvellous...leh bukak restaurant dah ktorg ni...shhh...teja, jgn gto warden..ahakZzZ...lapar bah time2 cuti ni...boring oo mkn d kafe ja....but then, kul 2.45 camtu...pas solat zuhur n mandi...*pagi...shhh...mr paul smith dgn baik atinyer menghantar nasi goreng daging cili padi yg didapati d gerai norziza di apas balung sana...huhu...tq...=)

2 more days of this CNY holidays...arghhhh....tekanan yg minimum...kna siapkan practical, pck en asran, refleksi merangkap laporan psk en asri, portfolio n notes miss fiza...sgt byk...wah...msti berusaha...esok..hehehe....i am a big procrastinator...dats a FACT!~

erm....actually, i am dreaming of vacation in a very cold weather country...tp kundasang pun best bah...hehehe =p but then maybe my next dream vacation is the other country...wishing for it...cam...erm...korea ke,chiangmai ker...time2 blajo ni mana leh jejauh...tadak duit wei...hehehehe....started dreamin'...pen off...

"Sinheugsa Temple, Korea..."

feel brand new...

assalamualaikum...diz site is re-created to re-branding myself...bkn pe...i am a sort of person who is quite easy to get bored wiz the same looks...the same things goes wiz my bedsheets...kept changing from the 1st time i stayed in hostel...since 2004...since matrix...huhu...and the new one i got from aussino..rm37 after 20% discount...no choice...so mr paul smith had chosen the one with pink fairy tales as the theme of my bedsheet...quite cute..but beauty lies on the eyes of the beholder...total expanses spent til dis momen...bout...$400...waa..cam air...laju...sgt2 laju...but then i am very satisfied with the way i spent those cash...no regrets....

...diz he one wiz my feel brand new brand sheet...

...de otromen, my bolster, bantal free gift carefree, n bantal aries...

...diz is the store which i bought the bedsheet...

"Home is where the heart is..."

maybe i'll just pen off here for diz 1st one...nuthing much to say...there is a site dat i love to surf...quizilla.com...but not answering the quiz, but read thru the poems and stories...here are one of it...enjoy n feel it...

Incompleted

Created by maddieflames

Created by maddieflames on Thursday, January 01, 2009

I liked the begining scene,
The middle was the light of day,
The ending is not finished,
And its not going to end okay.
Trying to complete the story,
Don't know which road to take,
You held on to my heart for a moment,
And now it starts to ache.
Do we end up together?
Or do we drift apart?
I'm over thinking this too much,
And now I'm back to the start.
The story can't be finished,
But we can't end the show,
Not even the greatest writer,
Knows the right way to go.