am i okay???

reflect back to pass few days,i am totally 0 charged...no energy...no feeling...heartless...drowning...helpless...and today i just can pray and hoping for miracle will always be by my side...and I hope no more hurts will attacked my heart, no more sorrow will cover my body, no more pain will be with me...all those feelings make me tired, disappointed and breathless...i have nobody to pampered me, nobody to lend his shoulder when i cry, nobody will watch my smiles when i'm happy...and the things is now recovered to become better...and i hope it was the last time i will suffer from that kind of pain...i am willing to be scolded, to be punished, or to be neglected because of work...but please not because of trust...please...i beg you...and i hope u realize that i am not strong enough to face this obstacle...because the more u do, the more i forgive u...but by the time i couldn't forgive u, nobody knows what will happen to my soul...everyday i am praying for the happiness and i hope it will be everlasting..cause nobody knows how am I suffered by just loving u...

ucapan terima kasih...

Alhamdulillah...walaupun pada asalnya aku tulis entry ni aku tak tau nak tulis tajuk ape...tp ader byk benda yg aku nak express today...i feel a little bit relief sbb Allah masih dengar doa aku...but then, nobody knows what will happen in the future...

ader benda yg kita leh crita kat semua org tp tak semua org akan faham aper yg kita lalui...to tell u the truth, aku mmg suka bercerita pd org2 tertentu, dan org2 trtentu ni dah tau camner cara nak tenteramkan hati aku...and aku sgt2 happy bila org2 ni setia dngar luahan hati aku...

back to two years ago, aku bkn mcm skrg...aku sorg yg sgt hyper...and mudah ketawa tak kira tempat dan masa...dan aku akui skrg aku lebih serius, tp kebaikannya aku lebih matured...terpulang pada mata hati org..aku tak pduli kalo org rase aku tak matured...sbb aku je yg knal sape diri aku sbenarnye...=) yg paling penting adalah masa depan, no turning back...ape yg berlaku hari ini adalah lebih baik dari hari kelmarin dan ape yg bakal berlaku pd hari esok didoakan lebih baik dari hari ini...

actually, today i am really happy and grateful to Allah as I still can be by his side...the harder you strive, the happier u'll live...aku byk blajar ttg erti kesabaran, ketenangan, kesedihan, kekecewaan, kebenaran, kemarahan dan paling penting kekuatan diri...dan aku sgt2 berterima kasih kerana masih diberikan ruang untuk merasa kebahagiaan...=)

arini, aku spend the whole day dgn dia and the things that we do :

11:00 a.m - servis printer, technician tu ckp there is a problem regarding the scanner...

12:00 p.m - Dia antar aku n kak na g skolah, kami submit kertas ujian kat g.pmbimbing, ltak je
atas meja

13:00p.m - rest kt bilik, lepak2...

15:00 p.m - g car wash kat area balung, dikepit kuku oleh dia

17:00p.m - g cari port nak bukak puasa...last2 we all g tomyam utama...

thanks to him...

dua jam saja...

dua jam saja...
smth miracle will fated...
as for me...
Allah had gave me little of strengths that I asked from Him...
Thanks Allah...

"Engkaulah Maha Pengasihani dan Maha Mendengar"

Amiiinnn....

hoping 4 strengths...

Sometimes Allah breaks our spirit to save our soul...
Sometimes Allah breaks our heart to make us whole...
Sometimes Allah allows pain so we can be stronger...
Sometimes Allah sends us failure so we can be humble...
Sometimes Allah allows illness so we can take care of ourselves...
Sometimes Allah takes everything away from us so we can learn the value of everything that he gave us...

T_T

tak nak ketinggalan...

semua org wish ahlan wasahlan ya ramadhan...so, i dun wanna miss to wish to all the muslims out there too....moga ramadhan kali ni lebih baik dari yg lepas2...and moga ramadhan kali ni membawa 1001 erti dlm hidupku...i am praying for my family's health and happiness, and for my love's health and happiness...moga2 Allah makbulkan doaku...moga2 bulan Ramadhan ni dosa2 yg kecil daat dihapuskan...dah 23 tahun hidup di dunia ni, rasa makin byk plak dosa...dosa kat papa and mama, dosa kat cikgu2, dosa kat wan n tok, atuk and wan, mak cik2 pak cik2, kwn2...and semua org...arap2 smua org dpt maafkan dosaku...amiiinn...

rindu nak rase masakan mama,tp pe leh wart,even though with air asia everyone can fly, aku tak rase selesa nak flykan duit papa...and my money, makan pasir la ujung bulan kalo balik..and FYI, I am counting the days for the raya holiday...lagi lama tak balik, baru angah, kimi n baby rindu kut...hehehe =) hopefully...and miss my bestfriend too,ili and amal...geng, jumpe nnti raya k...tapi satu hikmah tak balik cuti this time is aku balajar erti bersabar...biarlah aku jer yg tau...and i am very happy because ader org yg always there by myside...thanks...

nak bergosip jap...

tak jadi...ramadhan dah dkt....huhu...jangan marah...rest in peace...

actually,tgh takde mood..

attacked by the virus...

it was yesterday...I entered 6 Gemilang to handle the pupils for a trial examination...it was paper II, Mathematis...40 minutes from 7.30 till 8.10..done...then, walk downstairs to the staffroom to prepare my teaching aids for the 4 Cekap class...today, I will recover the Materials topic...giving them assessment, and asked them to complete those worksheets in the class..it was really tough for them when it comes to questions...need to translate from A-Z what is the meaning of the questions,they can answer well if it is in Malay,aitee...aiyak...mmg la PPSMI patut dimansuhkan...tp PISMP Science which had learn for 4 1/2 years ni pe cer???

nvm...back to the track...when I entered 4 Cekap, at 9.00..my head is bursting...really wanna knock it with a metal hammer till bleeding...damn...sgt sakit kepala...cam dihentak dgn rocks and metal...cam de asteroids yg besar menghentak2 my head...then...alhamdulillah...can finish the cass even though just sit on the chair and gave them instruction...bg dorg translation...and got small voices, "diam bah...teacher sakit suda pasal kamu...diam~" ade lagi tiny voice, "teacher berjangkit dari siapa virus H1n1??sian teacher...woi,diam bah kamu urg..." no response from miss aireen...after the bell rang, went downstairs to the staffroom,felt really really dizzy...and lie my head on the table...until 11.00...

suddenly, heard kak dayang's voice...and other teachers asking me to go to the clinic, and go home to rest...cannot wake up...so so so tired...feel like wanna vomit...wanna cry!!!sakit sgt2...kechek wake me and ask me whether wanna go home @ nope...just say yes...and gave her the car keys...kechek yg drive....cegu mansur yg inform the admin...went to Shirly lee clinic, batu 3... cannot sit anymore...lying on the sofa...loss...waiting for my name to be called...immediately, went to the doctor's room,being checked...luckily...no fever...(no H1N1)...alhamdulillah...

strong migraine i guess...and I was given 2 days M.C...uinaa...unexpected tak g skool time practicum...slama ini kat IP tak pnah MC...haih...trima qada' dan qadar...then I was given paintkiller, medicine for fever, flu and cough...complete....gotta rest rite now...baru lpas mkn ubat....pray for my health to get well soon...thanks to everyone who care for me...thanks kechek....

this is a set induction of a lesson...

owh, today i had been observed by my teacher advisor...and the thing that i wanna tell u is, there was no electricity suddenly...i go for plan B where i used flash cards and raw material such as basketball, hockey ball and ping pong ball to explain about the relative mass between the Sun, the Earth and the Moon...and the best part is...the pupils were very excited when they were given the sweets and the lyrics card...this song is written by aireen aneza bitni abu bakar okay....

Theme : Investigating the Earth and the Universe
Year : Four
Duration : 1 hour
Title : How Big and How Far

using the tune " it's a small world after all"

happy singing..... =)